Things we never said

He saw her from behind and recognized her immediately. He walked faster until he was just ahead of her, then turned round, wondering whether to smile. It didn't seem like fifteen years. She didn't see him at first. She was looking in a shop window. He touched the sleeve of her jacket.
„Hello, Amanda“ he said gently. He knew he hadn't made a mistake. Not this time. For years he kept thinking he'd seen her – at bus stops, in pubs, at parties.
„Peter!“ As she said his name, her heart quickened. She remembered their first summer together. They'd lain together by the river at Cliveden. They were both 18 and he'd rested his head on her stomach, twisting grass in his fingers, and told her that he couldn't live without her.
„I'm surprised you recognize me.“ he said, burying his hands in the pockets of his coat.
„Really?“ She smiled. In fact she'd been thinking about him a lot recently. „You haven't moved back here, have you?“ Surely not, she thought. She knew he loathed the place. Even at 18, he couldn't wait to leave and travel the world.
„Good heavens no.“ He said „I'm still in London.“
She looked at him. He looked the same. He hadn't begun to go bald like so many of the men she knew, but his shoulders were broader and his face slightly rounder.
„ I came back for the funeral.“ he continued. „My father's. A heart attack. It happened very suddenly.“
„I'm sorry.“ She said, though she wasn't really. She remembered him telling her about how his father used to beat him regulary until he was 16 and grew too tall.
„Thank you.“ he said to her, though he felt nothing for his dead father, just a relief for his mother. She'd be happier without him. She'd been trying to pluck up courage to leave him for years.
„And I take it that you're not living back here either?“
„I'm in London, too.“ she said. She pushed her hair behind her ears in a gesture he hadn't forgotten.
„Just back for my sister's wedding tomorrow.“
„That's nice.“ he said, though his only memory of Amanda's sister was a rather plump, boring 12-year-old.
„Yes.“ she agreed, feeling that her baby sister's wedding only served to spotlight her own series of failed relationships
„And your parents?“ he asked „They're well?“
„Fine.“ She remembered how he'd always envied her middle-class parents, who ate foreign food and took exotic holidays.
„Are you rushing off somewhere?“ he asked.
„No, I'm just killing time, really.“
„Then I suggest we kill it together. Let's grab a coffee.“
They walked towards Gaby's, a small cafe just off the high street. They had spent hours there when they had first met, laughing and holding hands under the table, and discussing their plans for the future over cups of coffee. They sat opposite each other. He ordered the coffee.
„And so, Peter, did you become a foreign correspodent?“ she asked, remembering the places they dreamed of visiting together – India, Morocco, and Australia.
„Not exactly.“ he said. „I'm a lawyer, believe it or not.“ She looked at his clothes, and she couldn't believe it. They were a far cry from the second-hand shirts and jeans he'd worn as a student.
„You enjoy it?“ she asked.
„Yes.“ he lied. „And you? Are you a world famous artist?“
He'd always loved her pictures. He remembered the portrait of herself which she'd painted for him for his twentieth birthday. He still had it.
„Well,…no.“ She tried to laugh. She wondered if he still had her self-portrait.